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Friday, January 1, 2010

Haix... IM FEELING SO SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why dun i feel peace at all?
I noe i dun have skool
so how can alot be going on?!?!?!
I feel like crap luhs...
Sometimes wonder if friends would care...
And YOU! YOU want to be my friend... then stop freaking quarrelling with me la!
U like to choose best times to quarrel with me! Like when im going thru the most straining times u come quarrel with me..
In my head i alrdy beaten u up so many times... Killed u so many times over and over le
U and i are like like poles which have to repel no matter what.... but just so u noe, i am nothing like u and i thank God for that....
U can go on and have ur own emo rant like "Im gonna grant all of u ur wishes cuz im leaving... blah blah blah"
Well, no one asked u to leave dammit
So stop pushing the blame to us... to ME!
Emotional terrorist la u.... think i dunno u just sending me on a guilt trip...
ha
Back off man!!!!
BACK OFF

Wow... after typing this message i realise im not sad le... Just irritated
:)
LOL!

long time

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Havent updated in so long... just suddenly liked this song again...
haha




enjoy ba

Everything that matters?

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Some ppl get everything :D
Im not some ppl...

Friends

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Doncha just love "FRIENDS"
haha
I do:D

Shake it:)



LOL

A little too not over you

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Haha
I fell in love with this song again...
lol
And the lyrics speak to me, not in the BGR way tho...



Lyrics:

"A Little Too Not Over You"

Oohhhh oh, oh..

It never crossed my mind at all.
It's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.
And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go, I'll never understand.
I'll never understand, yeah, oohh..
Oohhh, oohhh, oohhhh..
Oohhh, ooohhhh, oohhh.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
And I really don't know what to do.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you, oohhh..

over

i was wrong
I was blinded by anger
i hurt ppl in the process
ha

I do not mean any sarcasm at all when i type this post... so plz dun read too much into it and just take the words as they are plz...

Sry Terence...
After the long quarrel i ended with me saying sry... again
cuz its my fault really.
I nvr should have posted that post about our quarrel cuz it intensified ur pain and torture.
Im sry for our whole misunderstanding which was yet again my fault cuz it was about me believeing rumours...

Sry Mr. Cheer Leader for being so blunt about u on my blog...
Ur not disgusting :)
I am disgusting for blogging about u...

My anger just overflowed to my actions in this way ba..
I am sry guys for not being a good enuff brother from church.
It's tough... and God nvr promised otherwise... but i just gave in to my sinful nature i guess...
Maybe u guys wont forgive me, and im cool with that i guess cuz i dun deserve it after all this disrespect i gave u guys.
So i believe that my distance from u guys would do all of us good. U guys wont have to be in the fellowship of the likes of scum of the earth AKA me, while i would not have a chance to sin against u guys again.

Once again i am truly sry, do forgive me yeh?

Camp

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Haha.. Camp's just over...
the fun filled days of 23rd to 25th November...
I dun think i will forget them :D

Camp started on Monday with a bus ride to pasir ris park...
It rained a little, but it didnt stop us from having fun :D
Once we reached, we were given a mission to save an uncle hu was apparently locked away somewhere and we needed to save him by obtaining a key... and since by the time we found him he would be hungry, we had to along the way get him food like yellow butterflies and red dragonflies and squirrels and hybiscuz and sparrows and eppy and mudskippers... ugh...

At least that was what was on the mission description...
What we realli had to do was solve a couple of riddles and take pictures of the animals described... lol
but it was fun, deciding where to head to as a team and working together :D
The only accident then was Rickson falling over his bike which left him a bruise... Other than that, i realli thank God for the Fun :D

Then we headed back to the camp site which was a changi Ferry point chalet :D i say the place was much nicer than any place we went to every year... this was the nicest :D
Then we had a good rest with free time to spare... So i took the time to introduce my new song
titled "Hello Mr. New" to some ppl :)
It was written based on Ephesians Chapter 4:D I was inspired by the camp theme verses and decided to write that song :D
Thank God it worked out nicely :)

That night we had another assignment as teams :D
Each group was to make their own horror film... ha
Well the experience was thrilling and exciting and fun for most of us... but i could tell for some younger ones, they were scared...
At nite when it was shower time even i was a little freaked to go to the bathroom alone!!! haha so we had groups wait for each other outside the door while one showered inside.. .lol
The togetherness and simple gesture of help towards each other is just heart warming and to see urself get help from ppl u hardly noe is a great feeling and from then, it was easier to talk to those ppl and Much easier to offer help to and have fun with those ppl :)

I was a shepherd and my charges were Rickson, Amas and Sherman :)
Amas and Sherman i hardly knew since i only saw them during Praise Kids..
Amas and Sherman were p6, moving onto sec 1 next year :)
During our sharing sessions after each Devotion or Word sharing by the uncles and jiejie, they would share what they learnt. I found they picked up on what was taught rather quick... and moving onto sec 1, they had lots of questions :)
Uncle David and i answered most of those questions :) But i truly feel its still up to them to truly experience what sec skool life is like... they cant realli noe what its like thru word from mouth.
I do hope they stay close to God despite whatever distractions they may face :)

Second day was another day of fun and games similar to the first... 2nd day didnt rain at all so Thank God for great weather :D
That nite, uncle david Delivered the message with fervence that just spoke to the soul and left all us listeners reflecting... Were we ready to rededicate our lives and give them to Jesus?
I noe i was thinking about it just as Uncle David Asked us to stand for those of us hu were ready... many had stood and i was still deep in thought... Then Sheramn beside me nudged me to stand.
I knew my answer:)
I was ready to, but i didnt noe what i was hesitant for... like maybe i was asking God for that little push... and There sherman was, nudging me... I laughed at the thought and praised God :D
Its funny how God Uses ppl... haha
That nite i wasnt sure whether Most of the Youth rededicated their lives cuz of the pressure that everyone else stood or cuz They truly felt God... I was sure God was present :D
When we were back in the room, Sherman said, "Wow, Just now i could feel God" before anyone said anything and Amas was agreeing along with rickson :)
I was just Glad and for Amas and Sherman, this was probably their first time entering a spiritually high atmosphere and im glad it was a great and enriching experience for them :D

Midnight worship was alrite i guess, everyone was singing with more Togetherness than in any song we had sung before during camp... it was a great feeling... just made me want to worship all nite... but i guess many were tired so after that, we all prayed for the P6 hu got their results on Thursday(yesterday)... i Hope they got the results they'd hoped for...

The next day we all packed up and left the camp for batok... where i immediately took the bus and headed home... got home around 1pm and slept from 3pm till 9am yesterday... :P

From the camp, i noe many enjoyed and im deeply encouraged that the younger ones found the camp an amzing experience with all its fun and God's presence :D
Kudos too to the older youth this time :D
They definitely did reach out to the younger ones and thats probably the reason they found the camp fun too :)

Photos are up on Si yuan's FB profile for anyone hu cares to view em...
OH!!!
BTW!
The basketball guys :Wei Lun, Wei Kang, Yoke Ming and Shengjie are in the midst of a competition...
On wednesday after camp these guys went off to the competition :D
WL, YM and SJ were in one team and WK in another...
WL, Ym,and SJ's team lost all their matches and were posted into the Losers league... while WK won 2 of his 5 matches and made it to the winners league...
Friday they will be competing again...
Wl, YM and SJ 's team will be competing for tops in the loser's league while WK's team will be competitng tops in the winner's league...
All the best to u guys and i hope u guys do ur best :D

:)
Now i gtg sleep.. in the morning i wanna go support these guys :P
haha
nitez all :D